In October of 2010 I got a letter stating that I needed to go back and get my second MRI. I scheduled the MRI and got ready to go. I went in to register for the MRI. The registration assistant was very curious about all the answers I was giving on the questionaire. She kept looking at me with sympathy in her eyes. She had been trained not to ask too many questions about the patients. I asked her if she wanted to hear my story..... She said yes. I told her about my first bout of cancer.... she started crying and gave Terry and I movie tickets. Crazy!!
When I got into the MRI room with my XXXL scrubs, I asked the lab tech to make sure that she scanned the lymph nodes. Now, if you can image.... remember the MRI machine. Not really big, right? They had me lay down on your stomach, they put pads underneath your stomach to make me more comfortable. They placed my breasts back in the square holes. Placed my arms above my head. Oh- and made sure the IV of radioactive juice was hooked into my arm. How I wish I had a picture to show you all. I got the giggles twice when the lab tech tried, I mean really tried to put me into the MRI machine. My toosh was hitting the top of the machine and scraping against it. I felt like a bullet being pushed into a gun. Twice she had to return to the beginning and start over again. I just didn't fit...... I took out all the cushions underneath my belly, giving me more room to get (my butt) in the machine. Now-- I have had MRI's before, where you lie down on your back.-- NO problem, I fit with room to spare. But this laying on your belly thing, going in backwards is NOT cool..... So, the cushions are now NOT under by belly, it is extremely uncomfortable to say the least. I go in....... Without the cushions--- I fit!!... Tightly, but I fit. For the next hour---bang, bang, bang, clonk, clonk, clonk...... I got through the MRI. to be continued...
Friday, December 31, 2010
The Story Part 2-- the MRI
Now I don't know if you've every had an MRI... Well, a breast MRI is a bit different, especially if you have a big butt, which in my case-- this is true!! This was one of the most horrifying experiences I have ever gone through. Claustrophobia 101, laying on your stomach with your breasts hanging though two square holes (don't they know breasts are round) and hoping my butt fits in the machine. Well it was a tight SQuEeZZZEEe, but we got it done. By the way, they have two sizes of scrubs, Med. (which I am not) or XXXXL. I mean I was drowning in them. I felt skinny for a moment. I got finished with the MRI.... results came back in two to three weeks.... it read, "You have a slight thickening on your right breast. Everything else fine. No cancer or abnormalities. Please come back in 6 months for a review. "
I was to say the least "FREAKED Out". I read it over and over, the only thing I could see was "COME BACK IN 6TH MONTHS." I then read it to my family... They were all excited that there was nothing wrong , no cancer, no abnormalities..... But I knew there was something. Why six months?? What was the thickening? Why did my underarms still hurt??
I was tired all the time. I couldn't (not matter what I did) lose weight. I even tried prescriptions from my Dr. to help... NO I stayed steady... BIG and overweight. I had headaches daily. If fact the month of April, June and Aug I had a headache almost everyday.! May and July was nice the Dr. gave me something that took them away!! They could only be given to me for headaches every other month..... to be continued
I was to say the least "FREAKED Out". I read it over and over, the only thing I could see was "COME BACK IN 6TH MONTHS." I then read it to my family... They were all excited that there was nothing wrong , no cancer, no abnormalities..... But I knew there was something. Why six months?? What was the thickening? Why did my underarms still hurt??
I was tired all the time. I couldn't (not matter what I did) lose weight. I even tried prescriptions from my Dr. to help... NO I stayed steady... BIG and overweight. I had headaches daily. If fact the month of April, June and Aug I had a headache almost everyday.! May and July was nice the Dr. gave me something that took them away!! They could only be given to me for headaches every other month..... to be continued
The Story Part 1-- the Dorky Radiology
I need to put this story into small parts or it will be the longest post every and you won't read it.....
The Story:
For those of you who don't know the story behind my cancer, I'll share. In Oct a year ago, I went to the Dr. for my annual mammogram. It came back with no problems and no cancer. I went back the next month, because my lymph nodes were hurting. They were pushing on my muscles in my underarms to the point my arm would go numb. I told the Dr., that there was something not right. I couldn't really explain it... I just knew there was something wrong. She sent me to get an ultra sound.
So in November 2009 I went in for an ultra sound. It was pretty routine, until the dude who read it come in. He basically said -while I'm laying on the table mind you- that there was nothing wrong. He said with attitude, "We could always do an MRI, but then we might find something ha ha ha." I said in response, "Are you kidding me. You're talking to a person who's had cancer before. Who are you, some kind of idiot??" I never heard from him or the hospital again. NO bill, NO record (until later).......
Two month later, lymph nodes still hurting, went into the Dr, again.... told her the story (she was very upset) and she look it up. She couldn't find it, and ordered the MRI. This would be March 2010.... to be continued........
The Story:
For those of you who don't know the story behind my cancer, I'll share. In Oct a year ago, I went to the Dr. for my annual mammogram. It came back with no problems and no cancer. I went back the next month, because my lymph nodes were hurting. They were pushing on my muscles in my underarms to the point my arm would go numb. I told the Dr., that there was something not right. I couldn't really explain it... I just knew there was something wrong. She sent me to get an ultra sound.
So in November 2009 I went in for an ultra sound. It was pretty routine, until the dude who read it come in. He basically said -while I'm laying on the table mind you- that there was nothing wrong. He said with attitude, "We could always do an MRI, but then we might find something ha ha ha." I said in response, "Are you kidding me. You're talking to a person who's had cancer before. Who are you, some kind of idiot??" I never heard from him or the hospital again. NO bill, NO record (until later).......
Two month later, lymph nodes still hurting, went into the Dr, again.... told her the story (she was very upset) and she look it up. She couldn't find it, and ordered the MRI. This would be March 2010.... to be continued........
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Family and Friends are amazing
This morning I woke up with a very bad sore throat. After talking with the Dr. at 5:30 am, we decided it would not be wise for me NOT to go to work. So I read my book, Anti Cancer, A New Way Of Life. Good reading. I may have to change my ways...... I rested and took it easy, just like the Dr. ordered.
The last few nights, I received three very fun calls, one from CA, one from ID and one from WY. I just want to tell my family and friends how much I love them. I am so glad you are in my life. I am greatful to all that have taken the time to call, send cards and prayed. I feel your power and faith!
I know that with the Lord, anything is possible. I am so greatful that He has a plan for me. I just need to do my part. I believe I have a lot of work to do! I know without a doubt that there is a Higher Power, namely Jesus Christ. I trust in Him and I know that he will be with me in the months to come. I am counting on it!! I also know that my family and friends who are praying for me or someone else will be blessed. Funny- I got a card from the girls at my school. One message said, "If I believed in God, I 'd pray for you." I hopefully can be an example to her and others to see the power of our Savior. I feel the strength and the power that each of you give me. So thanks!
Thought of the Day from Selena "Kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truly endless. "
The last few nights, I received three very fun calls, one from CA, one from ID and one from WY. I just want to tell my family and friends how much I love them. I am so glad you are in my life. I am greatful to all that have taken the time to call, send cards and prayed. I feel your power and faith!
I know that with the Lord, anything is possible. I am so greatful that He has a plan for me. I just need to do my part. I believe I have a lot of work to do! I know without a doubt that there is a Higher Power, namely Jesus Christ. I trust in Him and I know that he will be with me in the months to come. I am counting on it!! I also know that my family and friends who are praying for me or someone else will be blessed. Funny- I got a card from the girls at my school. One message said, "If I believed in God, I 'd pray for you." I hopefully can be an example to her and others to see the power of our Savior. I feel the strength and the power that each of you give me. So thanks!
Thought of the Day from Selena "Kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truly endless. "
Monday, December 27, 2010
Happy Birthday Janell
"Die you STUPID Cancer"
Terry and I had a wonderful Christmas. We spent it with Janell and Brandon. We took Terry's dad Haskell with us to Morgan. Janell is a fantastic cook. We eat, read stories, watched movies, and played with Brickman and Teagan's toys.
I am feeling really good. I had a doctor's appointment before the Christmas break. The doctor said I am doing really well. I lost 11 pounds in a week. They weren't too keen on that..... But I told them I have a lot to lose. My next Chemo treatment is the 6th of January. NOT, looking forward to that. The doctor asked me if I was hurting at all. I told him that sometimes my breasts hurt and my underarms.... I also told him that when they HURT it think to myself "DIE-DIE-DIE you stupid cancer" If I am hurting the chemo is working.. So " DIE you stupid cancer cells. So I can LIVE!!" (you have to get the whole scaring voice included) (gruff and with attitude) You should have seen the poor Doctor....... he thinks I'm nuts... (but I am just a little crazy)!!
I am working and keeping really busy. Mary (office assistant) is amazing. She keeps me safe. She sprays Lysol all day--on all the papers-- before students come in to the office and after they leave. I love that women! She is so good to me.!!
The picture of the deer??? I know you were wondering... It was in my Grandma Erma's house when I was really young... Anyway that's what I remember.
Later.....
I am feeling really good. I had a doctor's appointment before the Christmas break. The doctor said I am doing really well. I lost 11 pounds in a week. They weren't too keen on that..... But I told them I have a lot to lose. My next Chemo treatment is the 6th of January. NOT, looking forward to that. The doctor asked me if I was hurting at all. I told him that sometimes my breasts hurt and my underarms.... I also told him that when they HURT it think to myself "DIE-DIE-DIE you stupid cancer" If I am hurting the chemo is working.. So " DIE you stupid cancer cells. So I can LIVE!!" (you have to get the whole scaring voice included) (gruff and with attitude) You should have seen the poor Doctor....... he thinks I'm nuts... (but I am just a little crazy)!!
I am working and keeping really busy. Mary (office assistant) is amazing. She keeps me safe. She sprays Lysol all day--on all the papers-- before students come in to the office and after they leave. I love that women! She is so good to me.!!
The picture of the deer??? I know you were wondering... It was in my Grandma Erma's house when I was really young... Anyway that's what I remember.
Later.....
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Answering the challenge
Okay. So terry and I are on our way to Morgan Thursday afternoon...... We stop in Heber City to get som last minute items..... There was a grandma (older) who was trying to go to her car.... Typical selfish people would not let her cross the street. She had a cart an a cane. I asked if we could help she said NO. Being the stuborn person I am I gave Terry the cart...stop the traffic a walked her to her car. Terry unloaded her grocerys and everyone looked at us like we were freaks. It was awesome!!! The grandma. Very appreciative. So. I say. Merry christmas. Love the look on peoples faces when oi stopped the traffic in the parking lot. Priceless!! Keep up the good work.
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Wednesday, December 22, 2010
The glori challenge
Okay. Still awake thinking of kind thingS to do. So here is the challenge. The glori challenge.
For three days don't be offended. Let someone in on the freeway. Help some to their car with groceries. Don't yell at you kids. Take a deep breathe and wait for it wait for it. Let it go!! The best part. If you care ... SHARE!! This could be fun.
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For three days don't be offended. Let someone in on the freeway. Help some to their car with groceries. Don't yell at you kids. Take a deep breathe and wait for it wait for it. Let it go!! The best part. If you care ... SHARE!! This could be fun.
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Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Good Tuesday
I have a wonderful Dr who really cares about me. I went to get some help with my rash today. With open arms her and her nurse took care of me. (Without an appointment). I guess it does happen.....
I had a good day at work. I need to do much more.... A just need to take a day at a time. Kind behind.
I came hope to a package of ccokiies and a basket of fruit. YUM!!
Now here I am once again not sleeping, listenening to Terry snore and wounderful Christmas music. Ya know Terrys pretty good. Keeping a great tune going. Who knew??
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I had a good day at work. I need to do much more.... A just need to take a day at a time. Kind behind.
I came hope to a package of ccokiies and a basket of fruit. YUM!!
Now here I am once again not sleeping, listenening to Terry snore and wounderful Christmas music. Ya know Terrys pretty good. Keeping a great tune going. Who knew??
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Monday, December 20, 2010
First day of chemo
First day of chemo was on the 16th. Found out that I'm allergic to chemo. They had to stop the chemo and give me a bunch of benadryl then start the chemo again.
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Friday, December 17, 2010
Thanksgiving and the NEW stepping stones since...
Terry and Gloria got word the day before Thanksgiving that the cancer of 2003 has come to re-visit Gloria. This time it brought a friend. Yes- dang it.... The breast cancer is back one in one breast and another type in the other. Gloria has been CT scanned, Monogrammed, Ultra sounded, PET Scanned and had an Eco-cardiogram. Crazy last few weeks. We are going to try to keep a blog to give Gloria a break and to keep up with phone calls and having to repeat-repeat and repeating the story over and over.
So here is the story....
Back in 2003, two weeks after Terry proposed to Gloria, she was diagnosed with cancer in the left breast. She had surgery the first week of August, and married Terry for time and all eternity in the Bountiful Temple the end of that month. They then moved to California to start a brand new life. Gloria started radiation right away and it last for about 4 months. Life continued and was very good. Cancer free and very happy with Terry and Gloria.
In August 2004,after a birth of a certain little boy named Brickman who was born in June, our grandson, We felt it was best to move closer to Utah. We needed to be closer to my family. We made our way to Manti, UT --Terry worked for the BSA.
Manti was wonderful for Terry and Gloria they had to rely on each other and become very close. They both worked hard and Terry's talents were recognized by moving him to the main BSA office in Orem. He continued to work and grow. Meanwhile Gloria started a job with a crook in of a school. She had good intentions to work for a Private school in Salt Lake. She was their PE teacher, Health teacher, Volleyball, and Athletic Director. Then the checks started to bounce. Yes the Crook took Gloria for $8000 and declared bankruptcy to cover his own Heine.. Yes- he has to live with himself,, I only hope he has guilt. A lot of it.
At this point of our crazy life we moved to Eagle Mountain. This is where we reside at this time. Terry and Gloria both continued to work very hard. Gloria started a job at a private residential treatment center. She taught PE , Health and Geography. After about a year she became the academic supervisor for the female campus. Gloria loves her job. She still has a lot to learn. She loves the people she works with. They are so kind and help her every way possible. Terry has been promoted again in his job. He now works with the financial part of the BSA department. Terry and Gloria help each other with each others jobs. When there is a fund raiser that needs to be done. Gloria throws her ideas in... Terry may or may not take them but he does at least listen.. When Gloria is getting behind with registration for school, Terry will come to help read class options to Gloria to make her light a bit lighter. We are a very good team.
Well along with the stresses of the jobs, traveling 35 minutes plus each day to work (one way) Gloria had some health problems sneak in .
So here is the story....
Back in 2003, two weeks after Terry proposed to Gloria, she was diagnosed with cancer in the left breast. She had surgery the first week of August, and married Terry for time and all eternity in the Bountiful Temple the end of that month. They then moved to California to start a brand new life. Gloria started radiation right away and it last for about 4 months. Life continued and was very good. Cancer free and very happy with Terry and Gloria.
In August 2004,after a birth of a certain little boy named Brickman who was born in June, our grandson, We felt it was best to move closer to Utah. We needed to be closer to my family. We made our way to Manti, UT --Terry worked for the BSA.
Manti was wonderful for Terry and Gloria they had to rely on each other and become very close. They both worked hard and Terry's talents were recognized by moving him to the main BSA office in Orem. He continued to work and grow. Meanwhile Gloria started a job with a crook in of a school. She had good intentions to work for a Private school in Salt Lake. She was their PE teacher, Health teacher, Volleyball, and Athletic Director. Then the checks started to bounce. Yes the Crook took Gloria for $8000 and declared bankruptcy to cover his own Heine.. Yes- he has to live with himself,, I only hope he has guilt. A lot of it.
At this point of our crazy life we moved to Eagle Mountain. This is where we reside at this time. Terry and Gloria both continued to work very hard. Gloria started a job at a private residential treatment center. She taught PE , Health and Geography. After about a year she became the academic supervisor for the female campus. Gloria loves her job. She still has a lot to learn. She loves the people she works with. They are so kind and help her every way possible. Terry has been promoted again in his job. He now works with the financial part of the BSA department. Terry and Gloria help each other with each others jobs. When there is a fund raiser that needs to be done. Gloria throws her ideas in... Terry may or may not take them but he does at least listen.. When Gloria is getting behind with registration for school, Terry will come to help read class options to Gloria to make her light a bit lighter. We are a very good team.
Well along with the stresses of the jobs, traveling 35 minutes plus each day to work (one way) Gloria had some health problems sneak in .
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